Exhausting waking up in pain all the time. One thing I cannot stand is being weak. When I cannot be as strong or active as I know I am, i ache mentally and physically.
Having him worry over me doing daily chores. Having him worry is the worst. I keep the amount of pain I’m in hidden to his eye. I may fight depression and be very weak emotionally regarding certain things but when it comes to physical pain not much can make me cry. I woke up in more pain than usual two days ago that did make me cry. Everyday I wake up with something new. It’s crazy how life can change within just 2 weeks. The last two weeks I’ve already grown a lot. Opened my eyes and my heart. I’m choosing to stay positive about this all. I have been too. Actually don’t recall breaking down over this yet. Only pained tears. I will keep my head up. This will be a long road. Many tests will be thrown my way and I’ll continue to be my best. For me and my family.